finally friday rest and relaxation

and just like that it’s friday today. after a full week again of visits and appointments we are ready for some rest and relaxation around these parts. yesterday we had our first big follow up after otto’s surgery. it went about as expected. the leak has not changed. it’s not better but it’s also not […]


it’s weird driving into work without the baby in the back seat. we have somehow figured out that monday and thursdays otto will be going to one of our parents houses (thanks moms!)  so i can get back into the swing of things at work. joe drops off in the morning and i pick up […]

year thirty

i’ve had very mixed emotions entering year 31 today. mostly because reflecting on year thirty exhausts me because it pretty much kicked my ass. physically and emotionally. year thirty gave me some of the most beautiful moments of my life and the absolute hardest moments of my life. i remember this time last year very […]

weekend recap working mom

it’s official i’m as of today a working mom. i got ready and went to work for the first time since late july. it. feels. weird. i’m not going to lie it was so hard to leave but once i got on the road, got my npr playing and my coffee in my cup holder […]

finally friday

i really should change the title of these posts to “oh really it’s friday?” haha. i didn’t even know it until joe came back into the room wearing jeans. starting next week hopefully i’ll be getting more of a gauge in time because i will be heading back to work on mondays and thursdays while […]

ottos first halloween

i have never been one to “celebrate” halloween. it’s just not one of my favorites. me? i’m more of a thanksgiving and fourth of july kind of girl. mostly because they surround my two favorite kinds of pie. cherry pie and pumpkin pie. that and i just love the nostalgia that surrounds them. i don’t […]

mental breaking point

i think everyone has a mental breaking point. for me lately it’s not one singular moment but rather a pulsated series of moments filled in with wonderful sparkling moments of hope if that makes any sense. yesterday was one of those mini breaking moments. for starters i’m not a monday person in general never have […]

three months of otto

this weekend we did a whollllle lot of nothing. and by nothing i mean… nothing. i attempted to do things but even that turned in to nothing. i pretty much spent the weekend snuggling otto at my parents cottage binge watching “this is us” and not believing that otto is three months old already. in […]

Things I wish I knew about the NICU

i’ve been wanting to write this post for a long time. and things became much more clear after we bailed out of the PICU which surprisingly was a completely different experience from the NICU. the more specialist we see and hospital visits we make the more we come to appreciate our time at the NICU […]

weekend recap the slow life

what a gorgeous fall weekend to have together for the first time in three weeks. i feel like we missed most of october so this warm fall weather was much welcomed. we are adjusting to what we call “the slower life’. in fact im typing this with one hand because otto is finally sleeping in […]

so this is life

life after leaving the PICU is completely different from life after the NICU. for one were not learning so much as to how to take care of a newborn but how to take care of an infant who just had a major surgery and isn’t quite well yet. that is kind of scary. especially when […]

homeward bound

we received the news yesterday afternoon that we are officially homeward bound today! i cannot believe it. if you would have told me last week sunday we would be preparing to head home i would have given you a blank stare similar to the one i’m having right now. we have truly been gifted a […]