overwhelmed

i’m sitting here quietly in my kitchen dinette area in my bathrobe because i don’t want to wake up otto by getting dressed and i have to get this off my chest. i’m going to level with you a minute. i’m overwhelmed. if you’ve been reading my blog since it started in 2009 this is quite common with me. i bite off more than i can chew multiple times a year, day, week, hour throughout my life. the curse of a creative. i’m a lover of things and i’m a lover of doing things and i have a serious case of consistent FOMO (fear of missing out) (that’s for you mom).

i sat in bed this morning wide awake before the alarm hummed and waiting for the coffee to brew staring at the ceiling wondering what is consuming my time. what is distracting me? the tasks i have to complete in front of me are not un doable. so what is it? and to be honest i can narrow it down to a few things. 1.) spending too much time scrolling through my phone. 2.) running needless errands because i’m trying to distract myself from the tasks that need to get done that i don’t want to do 3.) drive time. the blessing of living out in the country is no neighbors and your far away. the curse? it’s 45 minutes to anywhere you have to go.

i’m not sure where i’m going with this all but hang in there with me ok? part of this blog is selfish and i’m online journaling to sort this out myself. we are in this together ok?

i guess this is a good chance for me to get you thinking about a reader survey. as i’m preparing to launch my new site (re-design of adventures in abbyland) i would greatly appreciate your feedback as to what you want to read here. do you like my recipes? do you want to see more of my home and style? or do you just want otto? wait, don’t answer that last one i know the answer. start those wheels churning to give me some feedback because i welcome it.

maybe it’s the changing of the seasons that has me all messed up in the head. i’m ready for the slow down of fall but not quite ready for the dead of winter. but then again maybe just a tiny part of me is? no no don’t say that. erase that from your mind you didn’t see that ok? also do not repost this when i’m crying because i’m so cold.

also i should mention we have our giant market at the ottawa county fairgrounds this weekend and while we are set and prepared i’m still nervous and we still have a ton of work ahead of us.

i guess what i’m trying to say is.. i’m overwhelmed right now and i want to be honest with you about where i am at the moment. it’s easy to project that i have it all together all the time but my life is a constant changing rhythm and is constantly involves trying to figure things out.

so have a great tuesday and wait for the dust to settle because i have some exciting things coming up!

Comments

  1. Life can get overwhelming! I like parenting stuff, home decor and to see all your antique finds and collections.

  2. Kim @IrishmanAcres says:

    I love your home and would LOVE to see more of it! But hello, anything Otto-related, antiquing, cooking, gardening…. you are the modern day Martha Stewart! Haha I get life is overwhelming also, just do things that come natural to you and we will all love it!

  3. Stop!!! Judging yourself!!!! Breathe…im way older than you so I get to say that.
    You love life to its fullest. Do what you can. Ask for help when you can.(over achievers, the hard part) You are fabulous. Your whole world.

  4. I have long wondered how you do all that you do! Do whatever is easiest for you and love the most. Maybe a combo of all with a generous helping of the Tot?!

  5. I hear you loud and clear. I am a master at distracting myself from that which must be done! I love your IG, and everything on it. Otto and your Otto voiceovers are my favorite though! They always make me smile

  6. Janey Brooks says:

    I love your writings about your thoughts, and feelings. I love you sharing all things Otto! I am not an antiquer or a gardener so I don’t normally read those types of things. However I do love to decorate and I love your style! All that being said, write what inspires you! That’s what makes your blog/writings so interesting

  7. I would like to see more if Otto (just kidding), more of your home inside and out and your decorating ideas also recipes and your antique finds. I feel like I just overwhelmed you even more, but you asked, LOL. I really don’t know how you do all that you do and seemingly do it well. Don’t be hard on yourself! You are doing great especially with everything that you have going on. Love your blog❤️

  8. I would love to see more of your home. Hang in there girly! Breathe! We as Mothers think we need to conquer all in one daynad let’s face it, we can’t! Don’t forget to take time for yourself

  9. Amanda Crowe-O'Keefe says:

    I enjoy seeing Otto and hearing your “Otto” voice is my absolute favorite! I also love to see your personal style and home style. i like the cooking aspects too, but i will say I dont love to cook and I think you have a much more mature idea of food than i do, but I always look forward to everything you post……and your insta stories are the first ones i watch each day.

  10. Stacia Dortch says:

    I love the reading about your adventures and great finds and how you’re decorating. I enjoy the occasional great recipe, and adore all things Otto! I admire your zest for life and your willingness to share with those of us who no longer have the energy of our youth.

  11. Deb Andre says:

    Abs, I feel the exact same way about a week before any production. You have a big production coming up, once it is going, all of this will disappear and everything will become manageable again, I promise. I’m up for all things Otto, athings that you love, all recipes, all of your zany stories; basically all things YOU! Hang in there mama, you have so many incredible gifts, thanks for sharing them with us! ❤️

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